Steps to a Family

I am 23 and married. We are now a family of 3!

Monday, April 24, 2006

confused

The hardest thing about not having sex is being told you can't have sex. It's been like...14 days since we've had sex. Longest time ever. Seriously. Sometimes we go a few days...maybe 3-4...and then when it's TOM (time of the month) but this sucks. First..we had 3-5 days of TOM, then I was on antibiotics for a yeast infection..so still no sex..then they didn't work so I had to do a one time cream insertion deal..so we still haven't. I did the cream Friday night and my doc said to wait about week before having sex. And it's hard. I mean, I really want to. It's that time of the month around ovulation that I really get...let's say, sexually excited and I will ovulate tomorrow or the next day so it's really getting at me. I'm undecided as to if I will give it and do it or not!!

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Thoughts for April

Well I have a problem that may be TMI for some of you, so I warn you now just in case.

I have a yeast infection. Gross, I know. Problem is, I will ovulate in a few days..well like 5 I think, anyway, point is, if I call it in to the doc and get a RX for it, we won't be able to have sex for like 7 days. So if I go on and do this, I know without a doubt I can't get pregnant this month, which may be ok. It just means I'll have to wait a whole other month before thinking about it again which sucks. I talked to MOH about it last night and he said don't worry about it and that we don't have to rush. This coming from the guy who thought something was wrong with him because I wasn't pregnant yet. Anyway, he said I should worry about being better right now. So I guess I will call it in. *sigh*

Monday, April 17, 2006

TOM thoughts

I just realized, last night as I lay in bed, that this TOM was a lot different in that I didn't bleed very much. I know that's kinda gross, but I don't know how else to say it. Maybe I don't have a 'normal' cycle anymore since I'm off the pill.

My mom informed me that a lady at church asked her if I was pregnant. Mama said no and asked why and the lady said that the night before she had a dream that I was pregnant. She said she never dreams so she felt it was odd that she dreamt this. I heard this on Sunday. Then, this morning I get to work and check my email and my mother in law emailed me to ask if I was. This is all knowing that NO ONE knows I'm off the pill other than me, MOH and my mom. So I find it a bit odd for people to be asking questions like this!!

Friday, April 14, 2006

TOM

I think tom came full force last night. I'm feeling it today. Did I mention yesterday that when I told MOH that I wasn't pregnant this month that he got this dreaded look on his face and said he's been wondering if something is wrong with him. I didn't know he had this feeling. Anyway, I explained to him that this was only the 2nd full month of being off birth control and I'm not even sure I ovulated the first month. So he feels better now. We're not trying in the aspect of charting, taking tempts or anything like that. We just quit taking the pill and I have an idea of when ovulation occurs so we are really just going about our sexual life like always.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

About Me

Hello. I have been married since September of 2004. We got pregnant, by accident the month after our wedding. We lost our baby at around 4 months and had to undergo a lot of different treatment for 16 months. We are now at the point where we have been approved to try again. In February I was in the last week of my birth control pills and told my husband to remind me to pick up some more from the pharmacy before the weekend. He suggested I quit taking them altogether so we could hopefully become pregnant sooner. So I went through March pill free and had a period then and have gone through April and am actually right now waiting on my period to start, should have been yesterday or today. I haven't ever been a person that was totally regular. I don't think I am pregnant this month though because I did have a blood test done Monday for other reasons and it came back fine and no sign of pregnancy...so I think I will start (tom) time of the month anytime now. I hope to keep this updated until we do get pregnant and change this to a pregnancy journal. I want to be able to record my feelings until then and how each month goes by.